Personal Honesty. That’s what has been lacking in my weight loss journey. That’s what has enabled my binge behavior to persist all these years while I labored to lose weight. MAN, I’ve been cheating myself for years! It’s like bailing water out of a canoe…that has a hole in the bottom. Hard, HARD work…..for no payoff. Well, no long-term, consistent payoff, anyhow.
So – I ran a Marathon on Jan 13th, 2013! On that day, I was my lowest weight as an adult woman –> 197 pounds. I had lost 80 pounds between that day in March 2010 when I joined Weight Watchers and my Marathon day in 2013. It was a slow and steady process. Ups and downs. Haha….weight loss is NEVER a straight line down. If anyone ever tells you that — walk away cuz their ‘pants are on fire’! #LiarLiarPantsOn….you get it.
So – I’m going to be brave, and write about my binge behavior for the next few days. You have to know before we start….that this ‘thing’ is likely the biggest shame of my life. I’m able to talk about it now – because I have promised myself that we will stop. (Oh yes , we – this is going to require ME, MYSELF, and I — all of us!) I feel that I am close to ridding myself of this ‘thing‘.
It’s my sister’s 49th birthday this weekend — and the sweets have come into the house already! DANGER!
This coconut cake got me last night, but I’m not going to let it keep me down. It’s still resting on the counter, with nibbles and bites reducing it to scraps. I have NOT touched it today, nor will I. Truth be told, it was just OK. Not f.a.n.t.a.s.t.i.c…..and for those expensive WW smart points, it needs to be f.a.n.t.a.s.t.i.c.
To ward off the sugar ghosts trying to tempt me – I went to Whole Foods with Peter and came home with beautiful red, ripe, sweet cherries. I’m happy. I’m stronger. Ghost whispers can’t get me now.
Ciao for now……Diane
This was one HAPPY day! A friend of mine called to tell me…she resigned today. She is retiring!!
First and foremost – I am alright.
But I spent the afternoon in the Emergency Room. Read the rest of this entry
The family drove out to the Mall at Millenia today, to splurge a little on new bathing suits for our upcoming trip. The day was a mixed bag… but this cloud had a silver lining.