In the past 2 years, I’ve lost my Happy too often, too easily. And it’s not even because I don’t have things to be happy about. I have e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. to be happy about. It’s simply been because I’ve allowed myself to slip back into my old ways…..where unHappiness creeps in as my weight creeps up. I’m allowing my weight to be a thief!
So — today – Saturday – there in my seat in the back row of the 8am Weight Watchers meeting — Denise asked us, “How are you going to cultivate Happiness this week?” Where does your happiness come from? Make a plan”, she said.
Ok. Good news!
My happiness comes from soooo many places. From people I love, from quiet time and candles and bubble baths, and from books and music, and activities, like swimming, walking, biking and singing. Oh, I could go on and on. So after the warm glow of appreciation began to subside — I thought harder. When was I REALLY, Super HAPPY happy because of actions I had taken AND how can I get back there. My Marathon, 2 years go, immediately came to mind.
Ohhh…crossing the finish line of those 26.2 miles was o.v.e.r.w.h.e.l.m.i.n.g. But the 500 miles I ran in training for it the 16 weeks leading up to it – well — T.H.O.S.E. were the miles that MADE ME. The dedication to get out there and run 5-6 days a week. Week after week. Long runs every Sunday. Sunday after Sunday. Miles increasing every week.
I B-E-C-A-M-E! SOMEBODY NEW.
I loved that.
THAT made me So incredibly Happy.
I’m going there again.
Uh ,,,, NO. Not today. And not tomorrow. But I’m going to start. The same way I did before. I remember what I was doing before the “whisper of a thought”about running even entered my head. I W-A-L-K-E-D.
Peter and I would go out and walk a 5K every night after dinner.
So. I started that today. I came home from Weight Watchers and walked a 5K. I’m going to build a habit of walking greater distances during the month of June. No running. Not yet. I’m going to walk – and build by strength and endurance for it.
Running — it’s out there. Come October — I’m going to do a the All Women’s Perfect 10 Miler. I’ll be ready. I’ll be on my way to BECOMING again…..
The thought of it — makes me HAPPY 🙂
Ciao for now……Diane