Heading into a Rest Day, I try to spend my non-running time seeking out food for my soul…..you know….courage building stuff.
But today, I remind myself of what I really need. To relax. To take a giant chill pill! LOL
I worry so much that I won’t size up to the immensity of this Marathon journey I am on. I judge myself insufficient all the time. And yet, here I am. Little ole me. Still here. Trying my best. Each and every day.
But, hey….I mean. That’s IT, isn’t it? I mean….THAT’s the Big Secret to the whole thing, right? The big GREATS in life…..the Bests of the Best….that’s what they did, isn’t it? They just kept showing up. Day after Day. Win or Lose. Good Day or Bad. Refusing to quit. They just kept showing up. THAT is the Secret….I mean, if there ever was a Secret at all.
All of us, the GREAT and the small……we all have IT in us. But what is IT? If we boil it down, that’s the real question right? When I judge myself, what am I measuring myself to be lacking? What is it I am judging that I am short of? Is it GREATNESS? Is that it?
LOL, you know….sometimes….I don’t even really know. I’m just so used to judging myself (negatively)….as an instantaneous habit……that it’s been a long time since I ever really thought about what it is I’m so BAD at. Lmao. That’s kinda funny. In a pathetic kinda funny way. But, it also makes me stronger to realize this. I think…..I think next time I catch myself judging ME….I’m going to tell myself to “shut up. because I don’t even know what the h#ll I’m talking about.” LOL Take that you Broken Inner Voice.
So heading into my Rest Day, my mind returns to a posting that floated through my Facebook a few days ago. At the time, I thought it was a good concept. But since Sunday….and my busted long run……I think it’s sheer genius. Here’s what it offered ….some food for thought……..
“Greatness. It’s just something we made up.
Somehow we’ve come to believe that greatness is a gift, reserved for a chosen few. For prodigies. For superstars.
And the rest of us can only stand by, watching.
Well, You can forget that.
Greatness is not some rare DNA strand. It’s not some precious thing.
Greatness is no more unique to us than breathing. We’re all capable of it.
All of us.”
Diane, you are not lacking in any way. You have everything you need to be successful. In this journey, or any other for that matter. So, Stop worrying. Breathe. Don’t make it such a big deal. LMAO, I mean…it IS a big deal….it’s a Marathon afterall…..but it’s not bigger than YOU are. You measure up kid. You are NOT in over your head. You are capable of Greatness. It is no more unique than breathing. No more unique than breathing…..
Breathe Girl. Breathe. Breathe……..breathe.
Ciao for now……..Diane