Right out of the box, I head to the Dictionary, looking for a clear understanding of what a ghost is. I mean, we all know what ghosts are, right? We grew up fearing they took up residence under our beds and in our closets. Grateful to grow up, to become an adult, so there was nothing to fear. No chance of ghosts scaring us, controlling us, or haunting us. Or is there? Ok, so maybe they don’t wake me from my sleep anymore. But maybe, just maybe…..there is an apparition living in my house. And I need to figure out how to get rid of it, O.N.C.E and for A.L.L.
I think the spirit of DOUBT may be making a last-ditch attempt to take back my body. LOL
Think about it. I’ve come so far, and accomplished so much. I ran over 300 miles training for a half marathon, and then pounded those 13.1 miles into the ground in April. And yet….whispers of DOUBT have come back to haunt me, as if it were not me who earned that Finisher’s Medal. Just like the definition says…like a manifestation of a living thing, DOUBT is crawling back from the dead, into my life, like some ballsy bad-@ss — taking up residence on my Couch and demanding a beer. All draped in white, dragging chains, and sounding all creepy. Maybe it’s real, and maybe it’s not. But the only real question is, “Diane….What R U Gonna Do About It?”
Options….What are my options??
Well, lets see…options…hmm.
1) You can cower in fear. Let the d@mn ghost come home and haunt you again. Go join him on the couch and eat chips and cupcakes, trying to pretend that your life back on the Couch is a “good enough” life. [My NEW Healthy Inner Voice is calling me every foul name in the book telling me “I d@mn well better not choose this Option. Keep reading! ” she demands.]
2) You can trap the ghost in some force-field contraption, take it to a remodelled fire house in Manhattan and upload it to the Ghost Repository…where it will live until the GhostBusters by-pass some spirit volume limit and they escape and take over the City and the body of Sigourney Weaver……which was scarier than when she fought the Alien…if you can imagine such a thing! And did you know, in space, no one can hear you scream? But I digress, Just keep reading.
3) You can ignore the ghost. Ghosts are like old boyfriends (another kind of ghost, ya with me ladies??)…..If you don’t give them your attention….they go away, eventually.
4) Or, you can choose to slay the ghost. Kill it again. And again. And again. Every day, as a matter of fact, until it realizes that YOU are the bad @ss, Diane, and it becomes easier to just go haunt somebody else. Somebody less determined.
Because that’s what this ghost battle is all about anyway. This ghost isn’t haunting my house or my attic. Nope, this one wants Me. My attention. My company. This ghost knows it’s on its last leg. That I’m on the cusp of becoming somebody new. Somebody active, and heathy, with habits that don’t involve sitting on the Couch very often. But ignoring the ghost isn’t enough. Ive got to choose to slay him every single day. One day at a time. I’m going to stay on track with my Daily Schedule. Keep moving forward one day at a time with healthy eating and daily exercise. Eat my daily WW PPVs, treat myself with my WPs, and strengthen myself with daily running, and positive Belief Building.
Killing the ghost is an important step. But even that won’t be enough for the long run. Ive got to get busy building a new kind if spirit to take its place. I need to get busy Building my Beliefs about my New Healthy Self….she needs some attention too. More on that in the coming days.
Ciao for now….Diane