Can you believe 100 days have passed? I have to tell you that when I began this happiness journey — multiple people (including my husband) – questioned – doubted – worried – that 100 days of consecutive blogging would be too much for me to take on. Yet here we are. So let’s break it down, and talk about what we’ve learned.
Ok – FULL TRANSPARENCY! I began the 100 Days of Happiness — just four short days after I lost my job. I was told my job was eliminated on a Tuesday. By Saturday morning, I had managed to stop crying. Yea, I cried for 4 days. Oh please – the JOB wasn’t all T.H.A.T. But somehow…being told (after 14 years) that you weren’t needed anymore. Well. It HURT. ALOT.
So I saw my friend Faith doing the 100 Days of Happiness on Facebook, and I figured……this is the point in my life when I NEEDED happiness the most – so I should go on a journey to find it.
After 100 days — 100 mornings – 100 afternoons – 100 nights of looking for happiness in all the small places — it’s easy to tell you that the lesson…THE LESSON….was/is/and will always be….that happiness is not something you find, it’s something you choose! Every day. Each one of those 100 days.
100 days later — my transition period from work is over, and I am unemployed for the first time in my life! …………. And it’s Ok. I’m looking for a job. No. Hold up. Stop! I’m not Juust looking for a job, like any ole job…..I want a job that I enjoy. A job that allows me to learn again. Along side people who like me. Care about me. Invite me to their homes for coffee and christmas parties. I want to LIVE….and work. Not work….and struggle to find time to live.
100 days later — our house if for sale, Erin left for college, we lost our 10-year old puppy Zoey….and Peter’s father passed away. Some were hard days. Yet, on each of those days…..I found small l.o.v.e.l.y. moments, moments I slowed down long enough to see. Moments that I chose to hold on to….instead of the sad, hard parts of life. Happiness takes choice. It must be chosen, everyday.
Oh it’s easy somedays….when Christmas trees and Gingerbread houses fill the day, or when Valentine’s day tulips adorn your kitchen table. But what about those days in the middle. All those ordinary days that we don’t remember or (worse even)..forgot we lived!
I’ve spent 100 days n.o.t.i.c.i.n.g. my LIFE. All the good, the bad, the big, the small….and all the ordinary. My biggest surprise was…..that happiness doesn’t have to be forced. I didn’t (not once), “create” happiness….just for this 100 day journey. Nope. I just had to open my eyes..and look at my life. The one I was missing when I was racing around, doing…..”nothing important”.
So where does this leave me? Well, back in November….if I allow myself to be honest…..I was hoping that I would be employed again, and be able to say….“See Ta-Da….in 100 days….my life fell apart and I put it back together again like magic. Ta-da!”
Well….here I am 100 days later…pieces of my “life puzzle” still scattered around me….and there’s no magic….but there is a lot of happiness. I’m really happy. It took 100 days for me to learn …to slow down. To allow myself (for this first time)….the liberty of time to let this next transition happen. In that, I’m Choosing Happiness. Every day.
So — the journey is incomplete. <—– Ahhhh. there is the magic. Such is Life. Incomplete, each day. And thank god it is.
Please stay with me friends. We’re rolling this one forward. From 100 Days of Happiness to 365 Days of Happiness. I can’t promise you what lies ahead….I just know that each day…..the morning breaks, and offers us an opportunity for one.original.opportunity. Everyday.
Let’s Take It Together.
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Ciao for now….Diane <3
WOW Diane just reading this today (Monday 2/22…. I can not tell you that is was meant to be read today. You really have not a clue how this has touched me!!!!!! I am to going through some very tough times and this morning was a WOOPER!! Mentally I am a mess and wash out…. but I am starting couseling on Thursday…. It is so had describe something that I feared SOOOO much…. letting my feelings and issues out and letting someone help me and have needed for quite a while that I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT!!! 🙂 You have no idea how I feel like wrote this for me to read today. Thank you!!! and you just may see me Saurday morning, XOXOOXOX <3 Thank you my friend for sharing.
I wish you the best Ivy. Go into Thursday with the expectation like it’s the “1st day of school”. You won’t learn everything you need on the 1st day == but it’s a beginning! One day at a time…Hope to see you Saturday.