I’ve been reading a lot over the past few days about self-sabbotage.   Why I do it?  and how to stop?

Well, it appears that It all centers around the All or Nothing attitude that has been the inertia and propulsion system of all my diets over the course of my entire life.  No surprise!!!  Relying on Willpower and Positive feedback on the scale (ie pounds lost) — UNTIL all hell break’s loose and I REWARD my progress with — anything.  Everything.  I’ve missed.  Vicious Circle, sound familiar??

It’s the Red Light – Green Light — Good Food – Bad Food Rollercoaster ride of Weight loss. Ohhh…I have a Lifelong Annual Pass to this ride.  It’s awful.  And I’m bored with it.

This week — the topic in Weight Watchers is — Slowing Down.  Most people are focusing on eating slower.  Hey, don’t get me wrong — I could use a lesson in that too.  No, it’s just that I think my real lesson is — I have to Slow Down my desire to lose weight….to give myself time and room…to Learn.  Learn how to lose it once and for all.  And in order to do that, I have to change.  I have to leave my Roller-Coaster habits behind, and learn the habits of Skinny People.

The first lesson is — I have to stop caring about the weight loss and care more about learning the habits.  I also have to make a disciplined list of the habits I want to learn.

So, I’m slowing down.  LOL, not my progress — cuz that’s been going backwards anyway.  I’m slowing down my e.x.p.e.c.t.a.t.i.o.n.s.   Yea.  I’m slowing down, so I can start becoming — the skinny me that wants off the roller coaster.

I’m going to change my Head first….and believe that my Body will follow.

I KNOW, Denise, i KNOW…this is what you have been trying to tell me for 3 years.  I’m a Slow Learner.  But hopefully, this time around — that will work to my advantage!

Ciao for now….Diane