For my friend and soul-sister Lisa…..

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Sometimes, a friend comes along…at just the right time….and says just the right thing!

after work today, my friend Joan and I did a glorious walk around the Harbor here in Baltimore.   It was about 630p, but the sun was still shining on our faces, and the  weather was just s.i.n.g.i.n.g. Spring!!

We walked, we talked, we laughed.  She reminded me to climb off my own back, and then the magic words came.

When I blurted out my words of disappointment, in myself, in my weight gain….she said..exactly what I needed.  You did it before….you will get there again.

it was like a re calibration of my mind.

im back in my hotel room, eating the dinner Peter cooked and packed for me before I left home on Tuesday morning.   I’m loved.  I’m happy.  I’m stronger than I feel right now.  But, it’s ok.  I’ll get back there.

Through gentleness.  Gentleness with myself.

Ciao for now…..Diane

Don’t send the sherif.  I’m coming.  I’m coming!!

Ciao for now…..Diane

of a bubble bath!

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“Oh No!  Not M.A.T.H. again!!!!”, she thought!

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I’m a big thinker.  A planner.  A deliberate goal seeker.  I over-work myself.  I over-do it.  Pedal-to-the-medal!  Sometimes….it’s exhausting!

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8am Saturday.  It’s too early to be pissed at myself.  But I am.  But it’s kind of a good thing.  I’ve been wallowing in “Sad”.  It’s about time I got “Mad”, instead!

Long ago when I started this blog, I wrestled with myself that I had to be open and honest — with all the facts,  good and bad.  With all my feelings, up and down.  I don’t hold back here, in Blog-land.  But then I realized something.  When I’m happy — the words just pour out of me.  I write and its a source of m.o.t.i.v.a.t.i.o.n. and i.n.s.p.i.r.a.t.i.o.n.   But when I’m down.  When I’m sad.  I wIThDrAW.  I hide.  The writing dries up, and the eating goes WILDLY out of control.  All that I am feeling, instead of writing about it, I’m EaTInG mY wORdS!

Devouring my feelings.   Consuming my stress.  To hell with the Food Pyramid.  Adios Power Foods.  I’m busying munching on my Fear.  My exhaustion.  My Blah-se.   Are you out there wondering where all those missing blog posts are?  Well — wonder no more.  They are on my hips.  and on my @ss!

But no more.  I’ve gotta get it out.  Whatever “I.T” is.  I’m going to resume my writing habit.  Even if it’s just a few words a day to set my tone for the day.  It may be a quote or a thought or a feeling.  WARNING:  I May Just Dump My Crap Here, every now and then.

But — I think it will help in the long run.  It will help me do some Spring Cleaning of the Mind, and of the Soul.  And mAYbE, just MaYBe….it will help me stop Eating.  Every.  D@mn. Thing. i See.

Here’s to hoping!   Thank you Alexander Pope!

“Hope springs eternal in the human breast;
Man never Is, but always To be blest.
The soul, uneasy, and confin’d from home,
Rests and expatiates in a life to come.”

Ciao for now……Diane

That’s my motto for today.  Oh, and I’m wearing my yellow flower today…..L.O.V.E.

Every now and then, I wake up with vivid recollection of my dream.  I’ve always been a dreamer.  I dream almost every night.  Active, detailed content dreams.  Most people I have met, either don’t dream or can’t remember them.  So it has been cool to be a d.r.e.a.m.e.r.    This morning….I woke up crying…..in my dreams.

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