Author Archives: Diane

About Diane

Ciao! My name is Diane. Welcome to this most precious place, where I offer myself a safe place to be vulnerable and bravely grow throughout the life journey.

#JoyRising – sunshine

#JoyRising – sunshine

The definition of J.O.Y is the feeling of great pleasure and happiness.  It’s delight, elation, bliss.

Halloween is behind us, so that means the season of J.O.Y is now.  There are 59 days until New Year’s Day, so I’m going to use each as an opportunity to share some JOY with you.  I hope you will comment and share some of your joy as well!  Please join me.

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Today – it was simply gorgeous in Baltimore.  Sunny, high 60s, maybe 70 even!  I warmed up my lunch in the cafe pantry microwave and took it outside to the outdoor tables.  I only had 10 minutes, but I decided the joy of eating my lunch outside in the sun for 10 minutes was worth more than an hour inside without the sun.  My entire day was brighter.  My lunch tasted better.  My spirit was lighter.  Soak it in.  Soak it in.

#JoyRising

Ciao for now….Diane

365 Days of Happiness — THE 365TH DAY!

365 Days of Happiness — THE 365TH DAY!

Well – here we are.  One entire year later.  The 365th day of my yearlong search for happiness in my life.  Bit by bit.

So let’s remember.  Why did I start this?  A year ago — I lost my job.  It came just two months before my 50th birthday and as a complete surprise.  I felt very capable at work.  I was a BIG contributor.  I was Making A Difference.

But.  It happened anyway.  And it ripped the rug out from under me.  I felt without gravity, spinning and floating out of my earthly understanding…..and I needed grounding.  I needed…..Happiness.

Did I find it?  YES.  Where did I find it?   Everywhere…and nowhere.  I learned….to manufacture it, ….simply by letting go.

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“Letting go?  What the heck does that mean??”

Well, I’ll tell you.  I learned through the sudden shock of losing my job — just how tight-fisted I was.  I held on tight to my identity at work.  I held on tight to the security and stability that it gave me.  It was as if my job nailed me to the planet.  I was here and ok because of it.

What a bunch of malarkey!

Once I learned how to let go….just let my reality be.…just be….I learned that my job didn’t make me who I am.  My home didn’t define my family.  Where I lived wasn’t where my love and warmth was.  It was all inside.  inside me,  inside Peter, inside our daughters, inside all the friends who picked up my spirits when I was feeling down about myself.

The house was sticks and bricks.  The job was projects and paperwork.  The happiness was in the connections.  All the little bitty links between me and all of you.  Every one of you…..gave me happiness this year.  And every kind word, every like, every smile and hug….allowed me to let my situation be and gave me time to learn how to see myself and my life.  To SEE IT.   And in that peaceful present place — I learned how to be okay.  The Happiness Machine was turned ON.

Things in our lives WILL come and go.  LMAO, of course the coming feels BETTER than the going (most times).  But the going…is just as important.  It’s in the going where the clean slate comes.  The new beginning.  Like the ocean pulling out the old sand castles you slaved for hours to build, taking it right out to sea…..only to bring in a beautiful seashell with the next wave and lay it at your feet.

Let life come and go.  Greet the moments with compassion….and patence.  Don’t let the going strip you of your identity.  Let it bathe you with the promise of what comes next.

Because…..something ALWAYS comes next.

Like tomorrow?  What comes after 365 Days of Happiness???  I.  Don’t. Have. The. Faintest. Idea.  But I know it’s going to be wonderful and happy.   <3

I send all my love to you from Baltimore….more happiness lies ahead.  Keep watching for it, everyday in your lives.  #ChooseHappiness365 (365/365)

Ciao for now….Diane

365 Days of Happiness (355/365)

365 Days of Happiness (355/365)

Up early today.  Rousted out of bed by my alarm.  Saturdays are best started by waking naturally as the morning light gently enters the room.  This morning would have been a deliciously slow awakening, as moody clouds filled the Baltimore sky.

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BUT!  Gotta get up.  Went to Advanced Radiology Group in Ellicott City and got my mammogram.  #SaveLives

Happy Saturday.  A whole wonderful day awaits you.

#ChooseHappiness365 (355/365)

Ciao for now….Diane

365 Days of Happiness (351/365)

365 Days of Happiness (351/365)

Building a house is a lot like putting together a giant jigsaw puzzle.  The choices and decisions can be overwhelming at times.  We met with a lovely woman named Nora, who took us through the design process so easily.    Nora, thank you. We are so grateful to you.

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Well – that’s it.  All of our choices have been made.  Our home will soon be in the hands of our Project Manager, Ben. We meet him on Friday for our pre-construction meeting.  It’s getting so real.

#TheresNoPlaceLikeHome #ChooseHappiness365 (351/365)

Ciao for now…Diane

365 Days of Happiness (349/365)

365 Days of Happiness (349/365)

We’re home from Franklin and Marshall Parent’s weekend.  My mind is full of Erin’s smiles.  Oh man.  No one tells you when they place that little bundle of joy in your arms the day they are born — about they day they will leave home.  How their smiles become the most important things to you.  That they are miles and miles away…but happy.  It’s all that matters.

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This peaceful Sunday night, I spend a bit of it thinking about my destiny as a mom.  So many nights rocking a feverish baby.  Then up in the middle of the night – chasing bad dreams away.  Then — in a flash — you are sitting at graduation wondering — “Where did it all go??”

My grown daughters are my babies.  And now, they are my friends.  And interesting people.  Kind hearted people.  I can’t wait until I can see them again.

Until then — I’ll continue to be their soft place to land.  And fill my days with….all that comes next.

Life is wonderful.  #ChooseHappiness365 (349/365)

Ciao for now…Diane