I gained 5 pounds this week.  It was a week of endless celebrating…with food.  And what was I celebrating?  I was celebrating the fact that I had hit the 50 pounds lost mark!  Yea — now let’s discuss how C.R.A.Z.Y. that is!

It’s all a head game.  All of it.  

And it’s best to just leave it in my past and not think on it too much.  Because here’s the other head game.  So I gained 5 pounds right?  Well — all day, I have been feeling like I re-gained 50 pounds.  Every ripple, every bump, every dimple….I h.a.t.e.d. it.  Ut – oh.  Danger Zone.  No hating on yourself Diane.   Get out of the house — go for a walk.  And so we did.

Peter and I walked around the harbor, we chose the quiet side and headed toward Canton.  Oh — here’s some more crazy.  From the moment I left the house….I was p.l.o.t.t.i.n.g.  (ya know – plotting??, which is planning but with an evil purpose!)…plotting the entire way to come home via Whole Foods so I could buy myself a donut or 3!  It’s a sickness…..

After walking for an hour, Peter and I wanted a huge bottle of water most of all — when I asked him if he wanted to go to Whole Foods – we both agreed No.  Why would we waste all the effort we just put in.  Yes.  Yes.  The fresh air was finally making it to my brain….and sensibilities were returning to normal.

Once home, I jumped into the shower — and let the hot water run over my head — baptizing away all the sins I’ve been accusing myself of all day.  After the cleansing, I brushed my teeth, got myself a bottle of fresh water and sat down to write this message to myself.  “Move on sweetheart.  Last week happened.  It’s over.”

The upside?  I did alot of healthy cooking this weekend.  I made two emilybites recipes to take to work with me for lunches.  I have alot of beautiful fruit (peaches, cherries, apples).  I’m set up for my come-back.  And feeling….45 pounds lighter, again.  Normal.  Ahh.

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Ciao for now….Diane