This unemployment thing….. is complex.

Now, please — don’t hear me wrong — but sometimes…..s.o.m.e.t.i.m.e.s. being unemployed is wonderful!

Ok.  Here’s what I mean.  I NEVER expected to lose my job in February.  I was an amazing employee, with tremendous experiences, and alot ALOT of responsibility on my shoulders which I bore like a soldier.  Like a trained soldier who held all my stress inside and marched across state lines, traveling for business without complaint, working long hours and weekends….forgetting what a normal work week felt like.  My commute took me from NJ to Connecticut or from NJ to Maryland.  It wasn’t normal.  Not by any stretch of the imagination could it be called normal.  So – when I lost my job —- first,  I was devastated.  But after a while — what really settled in on me was — how incredibly exhausted I felt.

Physically.  Mentally.  Emotionally.  Exhausted.

Managing being unemployed is a process.  One that is passed down from those who survived it before you….to you….and then one day, I will pass along what I have learned….to help someone I love and care about to help them survive this “bump” in the road of life.

In the meantime, I am allowing myself to rest.  To let it all go.  All the responsibility.  All the pressure.  All the hours on the road, and early mornings and late nights on the train.  Go.  Be gone.

I’m allowing myself to sleep.  Really sleep.  You know what  I just realized today?  It’s Monday and I did not have my “normal” Sunday night bout of insomnia last night.  I checked my fitbit and I slept 10 hours last night.

Yep — it’s gone.  The old job is g.o.n.e.

I can feel myself starting to “sparkle” with energy.   My mind is quick, inquisitive, p.a.t.i.e.n.t. again.  Patient to learn, patient to listen, patient to solve problems again.

I’m ready.

Ready for what comes next.

Yes — this unemployment thing was complex…..and wonderful!

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Ciao for now….Diane